Chloe don't know better....

...Chloe's just like me. (only beautiful) A couple of years difference, but those lessons never learned. (don't ya know?) Chole dances tables in the french quarter. She's always been given, so i can't always make her laugh. But i'm proud tosay, that i won't forget time spent lyin' by her side. The time spent lyin by her side. Dreams like this must die. And a dream like this must die. A dream like this must...
~Chloe Dancer (Mother Love Bone)
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I just feel that those lyrics describe how i'm feeling lately......
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And this is my kind of love. it's the kind that moves on. it's the kind that leaves me alone.
~Crown Of Thorns (Mother Love Bone)
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that's in addition to the first group of lyrics....i must say Andrew Wood was a fantastic pianist and lyricist.
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So i'm at work right now, and there's NOTHING to do. I'm just listening to music and typing and doing some odds n ends....Gordon left about 30minutes ago, it's nice working w/ him in the office for a change--we were talking about the Hoplessly Devoted To You compilation series and how after 88 Fingers Louie and Dillinger Four weren't on them anymore, the comps changed. Bands like Thrice and Avenged Sevenfold give the cd's a whole different perspective....
..I popped on Norma Jean Bless The Martyr and Kiss The Children and we were both rockin' out. NORMA JEAN is coming w/ ATREYU to the House of blues 3/13/05. That should kick ass!! i've never seen Atreyu and i'd really like to, as would i really enjoy seeing Norma Jean.
For more info on Atreyu's tour: http://atreyurock.com/tour/tour.html

i said to gordon "It's funny. One day I'll come in with The Lawrence Arms, Dead Kennedys, Avail, or whatever, and the next day I'll come in with Lamb Of God, Helmet, Quicksand, and Norma Jean."

I guess it all depends on my moods. Sometimes I'll want something agressive and angry, or depressive and angry, or aggressive and angsty*, or aggressive and pessimistic, or aggressively passive....that's the great thing about music, there's so much out there to choose from, why not let your mood determine what you listen to and when, its nice and you may learn something about yourself.

*do not confuse anger and angst--they're 2 different feelings. anger is, well, anger. angst is like anger of youth, to quote Dillinger Four, or at least use a song title to describe angst, Maximum Piss & Vinegar. Anger is seething mad, and you want to (here comes the Fight Club quote) Destroy something beautiful. Angst, you're just wanting to brawl, run around, reak havoc, whatever. Y ou want to be generally destructive, where as anger you have a target. That concludes today's lesson in Avoiding Semantics 101.

Ingredients: Sugar, Artificial Flavor, Gum Arabic,...

...Gelatin, Glucose, Syrup, Natural Flavor.----WINTERFRESH ALTOIDS


ok so i was at the WINTERNATIONALS lastnight (BLUE MEANIES/MU330/METHADONES/NEW BLACK) and fuck me what a great show...glad i went...missed BLUE MEANIES @ double door the night prior w/ The Tossers and The Cougars (who i've heard AMAZING things about)--the Tossers i know kick ass....

...i saw the Blue Meanies @ the riverfront in Rockford back in 1998 or something, and local h opened up for them---i didn't think much of the Meanies, mostly-i think- b/c i didn't appreciate it as much as i do now....great show last nite---i didn't know any of the songs --except for Pave The World, Ace Of Spades (Motorhead cover), and You're A Mean One Mr. Grinch.

MU330 was kick ass--the singer/guitarist had a leg (or foot) injury and was in a chair w/ 'is leg up all show, but still managed to rock the fuck out....the last song he couldn't contain himself any longer and got up and rocked on one leg.

METHADONES kicked ass as always--playing tracks from their newest release, they sounded really good live--and of course old favourites from Career Objective such as Far Away, Ammunition, TV World, I'm About To Crack, and Say Goodbye To Your Generation...i strongly reccomend picking up BOTH of their albums under THICK RECORDS!!!!

New Black--well, it was interesting and i'm glad we got there while they were finishing up.....the sound was decent.

While at the show lastnight, i was thinking of different blogs i could do--but would be difficult--my friend MR. GORDON (http://gordgordgordon.blogspot.com) has put his 10 favourite albums of 2004, i was thinking of doing that, or my top 10 shows of the year, or just listing all the show's ive been to this year (but THAT may be rough)....so i may do all of the above.....

but first....

Isn't it amazing how you can feel/think/believe you're completely over someone, and you start breakin' out albums/ or tracks that you couldn't listen to at first b/c it reminded you of them, or some shit like that? well, i was in that place--i'm gettin over her and things are goin great. I'm happy, i'm meeting new people, i'm concentrating on work and furthuring myself in my career and all that hoopla....and i'm bustin' out shit i haven' t listened to like: All Across The Universe (Beatles), Something I Can Never Have (Nine Inch Nails), With Or Without You/All I Want Is You/Bad (U2), and other (cliche) favourites....well i'm doing FANTASTIC w/ all that. [as you can see from my cd collection--if you've seen it--or just my blogging, ive quite the ecclectic taste in music] ---on with the story---so i was lookin for something to pop in the ol' cd player to lie down to and go sleepy, and i figured, "hey, here's something" grabbing What If It All Means Something by Chantal Kreviazuk (wife of Our Lady Peace's lead-vocalist Raine Maida) and the entire album is a go, from start to finish...or so i thought. When i got to the last track (bonus track) Feels Like Home, i got chills, and i couldn't take it...images of her started popping in my head and i was remembering shit, but not the shit i'd LIKE to remember, to help me not want to be with her--no the GOOD things---that sucked. i had to shut the song off--i couldn't take it. And that sucks b/c i thought i was all good--something about this song i love the hell outta' it, great lyrics and beautiful music....check it out--Chantal has an amazing voice (and she's from Canadia!).

ok......so i'm gonna have to blog again soon b/c this is getting out of hand...I don't even want to tackle this blog in one sitting.

merry fucksmas,
love:
ME

ps. www.allagesradio.com
listen to it fridays 12-4am---they own!
aim: allagesradio

"i won't let this build up inside of me..."

ok so just a thought---

Vermillion, pt. 2 from slipknot's latest album is fucking brilliant, depressing, and emotionally fulfilling when you feel apathetically like shit.

any U2 song works too.....One Step Closer from How to Dismantle An Atom Bomb is really helpful to drag the razor across (just kidding). Or Running To Stand Still from the coveted Joshua Tree album "you've gotta cry without weeping, talk without speaking, scream without raising your voice...."

Crazy by Afghan Whigs from the album 1965 is amazing....."Crazy, that's what you'd like to believe, but it ain't easy. when you're going crazy over the rainbow."

23 by Jimmy Eat World is probably one of the most amazing songs to come off of their latest release, Futures. "...no one else would know these lonely dreams. no one else would know that other part of me. i'm still driving away, and i'm sorry everyday. i won't always love these selfish tihngs, i won't always live not stopping....it was now my turn to decide, i knew this was our time. no one else would have me like you do, no one else would have me, only you. you'll sit alone forever if you wait for the right time, what are you hoping for? I'm here I'm now, I'm ready, holding on tight, don't give away the end, one thing that stays mine... i won't always love what i'll never have, i won't always live in my regrets...you'll sit alone forever, if you wait for the right time, what are you hoping for? I'm here, I'm now, I"m ready, holding on tight, don't give away the end, one thing that stays mine."

Miss Blue by Filter is a great song--found on the Title Of Record album the lyrics say it all.... "Could you stay long enough for me to say goodbye? you can be free as long as you're with me...when do you think i'll be okay?...if i should stay when do i pray? if i should stay where do i begin? do you think i should watch you die? should we close our eyes and say goodbye? when do you think i'll be okay?...hey you miss blue, you think that i'm well to do. hey you miss blue, i fell in love with you. hey you miss blue, i think about you as true. hey you miss blue, i hate it when you cry. hey you miss blue, i hate it when you say goodbye. when do you think i'll be okay?"

ok.
thats it.....and girls are fucked in the head. (that's my re-realized epiphony for the night)

you are throwing caution to what you are pissing in....

....pissing in the wind, that's the shape i'm in."~ Strict-9 by LOCAL H

so i've not slept very well all week.......was talkin to my mum and she coyly said "sounds like someone needs to get laid." to which i responded "this conversation is over. goodbye."

i thought it was rather fitting that i decided to restring a guitar while watching the first 2hrs of The History Of Rock & Roll on dvd.....and i was inspired--i picked up a Fats Domino cd..i likey.
i found a Chuck Berry 2-cd set i will get eventually (Chess Records collection)......i picked up The Greater Of Two Evils by Anthrax....its some older, Joey Belladonna-era, songs sung by John Bush---they sound meaner, and less , dare is say, 80's metal? I like it. Rob Caggiano and Scott Ian do an amazing job--the mix kicks ass, too! In the liner notes, i denotes which guitarist is on which channel....[Scott: right/Rob: left] so you can tell WHO is soloing when. VERY SICK and THICK sounding, i likey.

Was at Chevelle show lastnight @ H.O.B.--good as they usually are--they did a new cover Quiet by the Smashing Pumpkins and Tom Capone (ex-Quicksand guitarist, now Instruction guitarist) came out and played guitar. it was kicknuts heavy.

INSTRUCTION owned!!! i was glad i finally got to see them. I missed their set pre-Helmet on Nov.6th @ empty bottle, but as per arthur's (lead singer/guitarist) reccomendation, i bought the album--produced by Bob Ezrin (Jane's Addiction Strays--and next Deftones album). I was not let down, the album kicks ass, and since now i know the songs, i enjoyed their set THAT much more. I went and thanked Arthur @ merch table after their set for making me buy the album...he thanked me for having faith in the band to buy it upon reccomendation and not have even seen their set. He gave me another Instruction pin, b/c mine fell off my jacket---so i was bummed.

ok, off to work.

ROCK!


ps--not a huge xmas song fan, but i acquired A Santa Cause: It's A Punk Rock Christmas and i'm amused by it. its not terrible, its fun to have, and i highly reccomend playing it louldly and while wrapping your holiday gifts...its fun.

Holy Rockabilly!

t'was the weekend o'drinkin' for me....but that's not the point.

saw the REV @ double door lastnite (Sunday)---the REVEREND HORTON HEAT/SPLIT LIP RAYFIELD/ HI-FI & THE ROADBURNERS............

holy shit!!! great show---never saw the rev, and have wanted to for about 4 years---was s'posed to see em @ metro about 3 years ago w/ nashville pussy--but had to (surprise, surprise) WORK.

fell in love w/ the Rev lastnite and really dug HI-FI---rockabilly/punkabilly/psychobilly--t'watever its called...fuckin amazing!! makes me want to rock on the axe, drink some beer, and ride on a motorcycle....(not all simultaneously)

Split Lip made me want to watch "O'Brother Where Art Thou?"---its bluegrass-y---a one-string aluminum gastank upright bass--thingamajobber, acoustic guitar, and banjo--and wonderfully harmonized vocals......HI-FI was straight up ROCK N ROLL (think 1950's buddy holly shit)

the REV kicked my balls in!!! Jimbo is indendiary on the hollowbody, i'm thinkin bout takin guitar lessons again and learning some more theory....goo............

i put the REV on my ipod and the HI-FI cd i bought, as well..........threw that shit on random w/ an added bonus THE BLOODY HOLLIES (punch you in the face/kick you in the nuts ROCK n ROLL--check em out)--what a great train ride to work--i didn't even read, i just listened to the music and absorbed it---that shit kept me warm.


keep rockin--keep warm (its ass nibbling cold out)
love always,
me.

ps sorry this was so all over the place--i'vebeen working and running around every other sentence or so....

Week In Rock

kinda sucky kinda good. (not neccesarily in THAT order)

Motley Crue announced their reunion tour (all original members). I just saw a commercial on tv for it, made me laugh.

The band you thought you'd NEVER see together again LIVE!!!! March 10th @ Allstate Arena Motley Crue on their RED WHITE & CRUE Tour 2005.

holy shit that's amusing--then my buddy Gor-Mays sent me a nifty link.

http://search.aol.com/aolcom/av?query=motley&invocationType=avTab./aolcom/jsp/search.jsp

check that shit out.....

also in rock:

R.I.P. "Dimebag" Darrell L. Abbott 1966-2004

that sucked--what a shitty thing to wake up to....

so i found yet ANOTHER favourite AC/DC song: "LET THERE BE ROCK" from said album....great lyrics, great guitars (duh)

I picked up SHADOWS FALL at Target on sunday---shit its better than i thoght it was--i like it


that's bout it for now---here's some friends bloggers you should read. i guess if i were cool like p.diddy (scoff) i'd say something to the notion of "READ OR DIE"

http://gordgordgordon.blogspot.com/

and

http://whatthephish.blogspot.com/

enjoy!!!
love,
ROCK!