Saturday, January 08, 2005

i might be wrong.

i've found the world's most upliftingly DEPRESSING song....

God Only Knows by the (fucking) BEACH BOYS......"the world can show nothing to me, so what good would living do me?" FUCKING PET SOUNDS!!

ok next really depressing "oldie"
For No One by the (fucking) BEATLES..........what the kicker is, is the fucking french horn.....i think in my brain when i hear the transition, i brace myself.....my brain goes "cue french horns. cue tear ducts. WE HAVE FRENCH HORNS!! WE HAVE FRENCH HORNS!!! CRY BASTARD CRY!!!" i weep like a fucking baby.........

and thinking about that--------the ending instrumentation to Layla by Derek and the Dominos is a tear jerker --- i think it shows the true feeling of the song--yeah the main riff is rockin, but the song is depressing, and heartfelt--it's Eric Clapton professing his love or whatnot to George Harrison's WIFE....shit, to want what you cannot have--total rock n roll paradigm...and i think just that instrumental at the end says it all, its gorgeously painful.

and imagining all these makes me think of the scene in The Royal Tennenbaums that Elliot Smith's Needle In The Hay comes on..........oooh, shivers.

ok, now i'm going to beat myself into unconsciousness now---i can't sleep anymore........

and i posed an interesting thought to Uncle Gordon, (who is back from ALLAGESRADIO--great show t'nite, btw)---it scares me that my biggest accomplishment for the year so far, is not having a drop of alcohol since saturday last. what's even scarier is that it's a struggle......

In closing, i pose this question to anyone willing to answer it coherently.
What is worse:
wanting what you cannot have, or having what you do not want?
ok unconscious, here i come.

1 comment:

Jacks said...

it could go either way:

if you want what you cannot have - it makes you unhappy with what you've got in front of you

.... yet ....

if you do not want what you have - it makes you look for those other things